[Chrono coming here immediately makes Akihiko feel a strong hit of guilt. His arm throbs with an ache for a moment, as if his body reminded him how much he hurt people with this case]
[ he'll come and sit along the opposite wall, and look through the bars with his arms resting on his drawn-up knees. the hand he's used to punch him has raw knuckles, as if that wasn't the only thing he'd punched. ]
You didn't have to. Nobody would blame you for staying away. It's not like I visited anyone who ended up here.
[Mostly because Akihiko generally isn't very good at empathizing with those who ended up here, and the week he decided to change that, he ends up here himself. Wow]
If I can't trust myself right now, none of you should either.
[So in a way he's glad Chrono said that in past tense]
I have been turning all this in my head for a long time and I still don't feel any closer to understanding how I went wrong. It must have been possession, but something doesn't seem quite right.
[ it's flat, not really a question. he knows it's unfair - the effects of whatever illness or specter overtook people to drive them to kill were well-established - but none of this was fair. ]
An apple. No other thing would come even close to appealing to me, I'm sure of that.
[I don't know if the characters know the name of the apples or not, but upon describing one can tell it's a Granny Smith apple, yup.
........
oh right akihiko was in the park a lot on friday
I legitimately didn't realize the implications of hanging out near the apple tree like this until just now, ahahaha, but yeah, guess during at some point during those times he got an apple]
If that wasn't what pushed me towards something like this, I really don't know what else it could have been.
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anyway. he's still angry, but the fury has gone cold by the point he heads to the cell. ]
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Didn't think you'd come here.
[Honestly he's surprised]
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[ he'll come and sit along the opposite wall, and look through the bars with his arms resting on his drawn-up knees. the hand he's used to punch him has raw knuckles, as if that wasn't the only thing he'd punched. ]
But it had to happen, probably.
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[Mostly because Akihiko generally isn't very good at empathizing with those who ended up here, and the week he decided to change that, he ends up here himself. Wow]
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[ and therein lies the problem. ]
Everyone else, there was distance. But you? I think I trusted you.
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[So in a way he's glad Chrono said that in past tense]
I have been turning all this in my head for a long time and I still don't feel any closer to understanding how I went wrong. It must have been possession, but something doesn't seem quite right.
[He feels too sane to be that]
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[ it's flat, not really a question. he knows it's unfair - the effects of whatever illness or specter overtook people to drive them to kill were well-established - but none of this was fair. ]
What did you get out of it? Can you even say?
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[I don't know if the characters know the name of the apples or not, but upon describing one can tell it's a Granny Smith apple, yup.
........
oh right akihiko was in the park a lot on friday
I legitimately didn't realize the implications of hanging out near the apple tree like this until just now, ahahaha, but yeah, guess during at some point during those times he got an apple]
If that wasn't what pushed me towards something like this, I really don't know what else it could have been.
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he just nods. that's more than he was even expecting - the rest of the details don't matter right now. ]
Was it worth it? Hurtin' someone already suffering, all this? [ ... ] I hope it was.