oh this is. uncomfortable. for like a lot of reasons. shinji's panic attack is a little too raw and familiar, and pretty much every single action from then on is the wrong thing to say or do on both sides.
but he's here with kaworu, who... well, even this short memory explains a lot. ]
...I had so many strange feelings inside me. Things I didn't even know I was capable of feeling. I felt like I could drown in them. I had to understand why I felt so happy when I touched him.
That's right. Most of my brethren operate on basic instinct, simply trying to find our progenitor, Adam, or trying to understand the humans attacking them. I was raised to believe I was mostly the same, just capable of actual communication with them.
The Third Child - Shinji Ikari. I was instructed to watch him by the committee because the Evangelion unit he piloted was vital to their plans. Initially, he was merely a curiosity to me.
Evangelions. Beings made from the remnants of Adam and Lilith. But does it really matter much here?
We were children with predetermined fates. The others believed they were chosen to fight against the angels to save mankind, but I always knew we were nothing but pawns in the committee's attempt to achieve godhood.
kids getting caught up in adult's delusions of grandeur was not foreign to him. ]
You were a plant because they thought they could control you. [ the surgical scarring, the hesitance to comply. well then. ] But you started to feel things? Because of him?
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oh this is. uncomfortable. for like a lot of reasons. shinji's panic attack is a little too raw and familiar, and pretty much every single action from then on is the wrong thing to say or do on both sides.
but he's here with kaworu, who... well, even this short memory explains a lot. ]
...you know you shouldn't have done that, right.
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[He seems to genuinely think this and that he had no real ulterior motives.]
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Not what I meant. Ambushing him with a conversation like that.
[ right after what was clearly a panic attack. dude. ]
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[It's called toxic yaoi, Chrono.]
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but it would be weirder to not at least... try. ]
Is it because you're an angel? Emotions like that aren't... common?
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but damn. yeah alright that puts things in better perspective. ]
So it's like you were discovering emotions without any guidance. [ ... ] Who is he?
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Evangelions. Beings made from the remnants of Adam and Lilith. But does it really matter much here?
We were children with predetermined fates. The others believed they were chosen to fight against the angels to save mankind, but I always knew we were nothing but pawns in the committee's attempt to achieve godhood.
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kids getting caught up in adult's delusions of grandeur was not foreign to him. ]
You were a plant because they thought they could control you. [ the surgical scarring, the hesitance to comply. well then. ] But you started to feel things? Because of him?
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[he was controlled but he was well aware of the circumstances behind his very existence.]
An attack by an angel connected my heart to that of an another pilot's. Through her feelings my own awakened and I realized I felt something for him.
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[ ugh. he feels lightheaded. ]
Rejection's hard to take even when it's done gently.
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[Sit down bud. This is a lot.]
Yes. It hurts. Especially when they care for others over you.
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That's how you died?
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I-I'm sorry. [ runs a hand down his face. god. ] Were you-- able to get through to him, before that?
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